Monday, February 13, 2012

Five years old (today)

Five years old (today) by lovelydesign
When you wake up sun will shine.
We will not go under any cloud.
Let balloons go up in town,
ring out every bell...

Oh, undeserved sweetness and light,
stay by my side.
We will go out in the morning now,
a crown of maple leaves, a crown of flowers
circling your sweet head.

Happy birthday, beautiful,
in the streets of this day
play a song, play a song.


Today my sweet girl Adelaide turns five-years-old, and I've been tearing up all day long.

This birthday has been hitting me hard. I can't shake knowing that my baby is no longer a baby but a kid, growing up and away, faster and faster each day. Somehow I wish I could grab hold of the sweetest moments that we have had together - and bottle them up for to have once again, whenever I need them the most.

But I know that this will never be so, and today, I keep on sniffling away. I miss her already.

It is a melancholy happiness.

p.s. The lyrics above are from the song Happy Birthday, by The Innocence Mission. I believe that Karen Peris wrote the song for her little girl and I think it is just wonderful.

22 comments:

sarah wagner said...

Happy Birthday to her!
Your post made me cry. My daughter is almost 2 and I'm already feeling the years slip away. I wish they could stay our babies forever.
This was a very touching and beautiful post. :)

marikobrown said...

Happy Birthday, Adelaide!
She looks so sweet and tender, yet so strong and independent. I'm emotional too because I remember how she was when she was Reid's age. Thanks for always sharing your thoughts and feelings with us readers. Seeing what you and your daughter have really makes me feel warm inside and wonder how it had been if I had a wonderful child like Adelaide, not pessimistically, but peacefully.

shutterbean said...

Happy Birthday, sweet Adelaide!!

Carol & Eddy said...

So nice to read this today. I feel the same way about my older girl who is turning 4 in two weeks time. Every morning, she climbs into our bed and I always take this time to cuddle her more, kiss her more, stroke her hair more and tell her how much I love her. Your Adelaide is so pretty.

peanut said...

Happy Fifth Birthday Adelaide!

Robin Mitchell Cranfield said...

Happy Birthday! She is so beautiful. Someone once told me that parenting is a process of letting go, and I think of that very often. Like all simple things it is much easier said than done, isn't it. I think all parents understand this feeling: sad and happy. There should be a word for it.

Megan said...

So many hugs to you. I totally get it. I love how happy she looks; proving how great a Mom you are! This reminds me of the song by Jim Croce..."If I could save time in a bottle, the first thing that I'd like to do is save every day like a treasure and then, again, then spend them with you." That song makes me cry every time. (sniffle sniffle). I talked to me friend about this sort of topic the other day (her oldest is 8) and she said "Don't worry Megan, she till loves hugs and cuddles and still needs me just as much as always. You still have lots of years of snuggles ahead for you." :) It made me feel a little better. lol

aimee said...

My "baby" is 5....time flies.

Annika said...

Happy Birthday to your daughter! even I was surprised how grown she was, just be reading your blog from afar, so you as her mom must really feel the change!

Annika said...

Happy Birthday to your daughter! even I was surprised how grown she was, just be reading your blog from afar, so you as her mom must really feel the change!

Cassie said...

She is one of the sweetest little girls in the world :)! I love reading your blog posts and seeing your super beautiful family!

Cindy said...

i can't believe she is five, Five, FIVE! seems like yesterday she was just born & i can understand your mixed emotions. happy birthday, adelaide!

Carla said...

Wow 5 already Happy birthday and blessings to her!!!

Daniela said...

Oh Sharilyn... I do understand exactly what you're saying... my daughter will be 7 in a couple of days and I am already feeling the "melancholy happiness" that you're talking about...
Happy B-day to Adelaide!

Marcela said...

Hi Sharilyn! I just want to thank you for such an inspirational blog you share with us. My name is Marcela, I live in Mexico, in the border with California. I have a blog as well (mypumpkin.mx) and I just stop by in yours because I was looking for ideas for my new workspace. I love to sew, knit, write and meet new people. I was so happy to read your posts about your recent move, because I'm living a similar situation right now, in a new city and a new home with my husband and my little girl. Again, thank you for sharing all your wonderful images and words! Hugs from a mexican =)

amber said...

Happy birthday to your sweet daughter! I just wanted to say that 5 years old may not seem nearly as grown up as it feels today. The year my daughter was five, she was still very "little." I was all prepared for five to be that turning point, but it seems like six actually was more of one! And even now as she is days away from eight, she is still very much my little girl in the way she relates to me. My husband tries to encourage me to celebrate whatever age she is, but I know what you mean about it being hard!

anna said...

That song is so, so lovely. My husband played it for me when our daughter was born and on the drive when we brought her home from the hospital. It always makes me tear up with exactly the emotions you described.

I find such inspiration on your blog about how to let my kids love making, thank you. What a sweet girl you have!

Petit Pop said...

I understand your words... Yesterday was my girl who turned five years old and I feel exactly the same. I miss that moments, that life that will never return. Things change. Anyway, happy birthday! I love your blog.

Unknown said...

I feel so similar... My little girl is turning 5 next month and I feel crazy! You put words to the crazy way I've been feeling. I was looking at some baby pictures of her and almost couldn't recognize her, because I am getting used to her big girl look. Thanks again for your wonderful posts!

Jane said...

Okay, you got me. :(
I've been following along with you watching your little gal grow right along with MY soon to be 5 year old girl. I feel the same way and thanks for sharing. Really.

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the parading goat said...

Happy (belated) birthday, little Adelaide!