Tuesday, February 09, 2010

almost three years old

The other day Adelaide and I were about to head out for a walk, and the light was pretty - plus she looked so cute - that I paused to take some photographs of her.

She rarely ever smiles for my photographs - I can't even remember what I had to do in order to get this teeny smile! And, often times this little dog is the only way I can get her to leave the house.

In a few days my little girl will be three years old. This both feels both melancholy yet joyous, eerie yet uneventful to me. Because, in the overall scheme of our lives, this day is just another day. Because even our time together has flown by in a heartbeat, it also feels to me that Addie and I have always known each other, even long before she came to me. And that we belong together, her and I.

For even as a small child, I always felt that something was missing. There was always a constant ache in my heart and no matter what I poured myself into, it was never quite filled. I was constantly looking, wondering, hoping, and waiting.

But I never expected at all, that when my daughter was born and they gave her to me, that I would instantly know: This is whom I've been missing my entire life.

And my heart has been filled.

42 comments:

Momma Fargo said...

She is beautiful! Great pics to capture your moments forever. Enjoy while we can...they grow fast.

Rose said...

((goosebumps))

Your daughter and your post are simply gorgeous.

Lindsey said...

What a precious baby. I too used to never smile for the camera. Don't know why not. No problem now!

gjmaki said...

Your photos, your writing and her hat are beautiful. My son will be three soon, too, and it does bring up a mix of emotions.

May said...

this is so very sweet and Addie is adorable!

Shona B said...

That is too funny! My 2.5 year old has developed a fake camera smile and often requires the brio ant when we go for walks. Funny how they like to have something following them at this age :)

Vintage Kids' Books My Kid Loves said...

i feel this way everyday. thank you for sharing.

tina said...

she is so pretty! and I would steal her outfit in a heartbeat if I have the chance to. just the cutest thing ever.

Darkangel said...

she is so cute, and I know what you mean when you say you where waiting for her your entire life, i think every mother feels the same.

Hugs Cornelia

stephanie said...

Wonderful post and great photos! Thanks for sharing.

Elle said...

Beautiful. Well said. I just love her outfit:) She is so sweet.

Julie said...

What a precious post....thank you for sharing! She is also so very precious!

inkala images said...

The bond between a mother and daughter is precious beyond words. Such a sweet moment captured forever...

Ingrid x

vanessa said...

She is a doll! I love how you expressed your love for her.

Mary said...

Such a sweet babydoll!
I felt the same way when my boy was born 4.5 years ago and I'm still in love.

I think it's so beautiful the way you cherish and celebrate your daughter.

Stella said...

What a moving post, I couldn't even help myself shedding a tear... Besides the lovely things you do another thing that attracts me in your blog is the way you express your bond with your daughter. Pure love.

Petit Filoux said...

That is so beautiful - and she is really cute!

Amber Campbell said...

My son turned 3 in November, best year yet. Have fun mama!

keller said...

its so aptly written! happy 3 yr old soon!

ShellyStout said...

Gorgeous!

Gabriella said...

What a beautiful priceless photo! Best wishes to her for her upcoming 3rd Birthday!

I love the card you created for her by the way!

jennythepenny said...

I just had to stop in and say you've captured exactly how I feel about my almost 2 yr old daughter. Falling deeper in love everyday, never feeling lonely, feeling complete. :)
Love your posts about Adelaide.
Smiles,
J

Kristen said...

This post brought tears to my eyes. I feel exactly the same way about my 1 year old babies. I have twins and my husband is Asian too. :) I can't even remember life before them. They are such a blessing to me and I am so thankful they are mine!

K. Glyder said...

Beautiful post & beautiful girl.

Anonymous said...

so cute.happy birthday Addie.nihan

SaRaH said...

very lovely pictures and "poem".
Love for you.

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the dipe squad said...

So beautiful!

Maggie Ann said...

How sweet she is!...I loved reading your post. A Mother's love is above all others.

Ribbons Undone said...

"melancholy yet joyous" -- you take the words right out of my mouth. Every birthday for my two children, I grow sad and cry. We must be kindred spirits.

arounna said...

she looks so sweet - thanks for sharing

littlepuffyclouds said...

i feel sad now, thinking my little girl will be three soon too. she is getting so tall and learning so many things, and i so love watching her grow, but it is a melancholy feeling to know they will never be small again. a mother of grown children once said to me (something like) "what i wouldn't give for one more day with my children as babies" and now i get it. thank god for video and photographs! and journals...and memories!

Adelaide said...

I am a French Adelaide :) Your daughter is so pretty, that's great you can share precious moments with her.

craftivore said...

Your daughter is adorable. I know what you mean about the hole in your heart, I never felt love like that until I had a baby.

ricebabies said...

Wow, Time goes by too fast. I can remember when you closed shop for a bit to welcome your new one.

My son is 4 and starts kindergarten next year, my heart is breaking. I wish I could hold on to time.

Sid said...

Thank you for putting words to that feeling of meeting your children and knowing it was meant to be.

Wishing your beautiful girl a very Happy Birthday!

Amy said...

That is such a lovely sentiment, and so beautifully written. I think you should tuck those words away in a special place to give to your daughter when she's older.

Carolyn Parker said...

So very dear both smiling and unsmiling-- your heart.

kate / tinywarbler said...

that is such a lovely, sweet post. happy, happy birthday adelaide!

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Jayne said...

So beautiful x

Åpent hus said...

Hi. I just discovered your blog - it's just wonderful!! and your girl is soo adorable. I admire your creativity.

By the way - I am sooo looking for an old globe, like the one you have in your room. Do you have any idea where I could find one? take care! Regards, Open house, Norway