Saturday, January 23, 2010

always another masterpiece

It is very late, but I am awake, and alert. Listening carefully for my little daughter through the dark. Her heavy, labored breathing and horrible coughing. I've spent most of the last night, this day, and this night just holding her, singing softly to her, rubbing her back and kissing her damp brow. Trying all sorts of tricks to try and get her to drink something. Maybe eat just a little bit. And wishing and hoping with all of my heart that she soon be well again.

It's been several weeks of this now, first me, now her. We've been spending an awful lot of time in the house together. For times like these I've learned to keep a box full of simple children's projects tucked away. This box can mean the difference between a dreary day and a brilliant one! And so, one at a time, I've been pulling out all sorts of happy tricks...

Perhaps there may be some paints, special felt brushes, gummed sitcky shapes. Playdoh. Rolls of coloured paper tickets (with which she makes her careful marks on, and delivers to various mailboxes about the house). Chalk, and chalkboards. Wooden bead sets to make necklaces with. Sticker books. Kumon workbooks. Sweet building blocks. She carefully constucts herself beautiful houses and gardens of blocks, and then she will inform me that I live there with her, too. The two of us, together for always.

This little girl makes my heart just ache.

31 comments:

Jolijn said...

She is so pretty, as are her drawings!
Lovely how cute she is playing..

Have a great day,
Jolijn (Design)

dharmaflyer said...

Aww - it's horrible when your babes are poorly. Sunshine and warm weather are just around the corner and this is good medicine for the winter bugs.
Get well soon x

jjjourneyahead said...

Hope the sun shines on you today, and that you find moments of peace. It's so difficult when mama is sick, and heart-breaking when babe is too! Sending get well wishes your way! :) Jamie

Julie said...

i'm so sorry to hear she is not feeling well, that's never fun. That is a lovely drawing!

Catherine Denton said...

I love that last picture in her pajamas playing. Poor thing. I hope she feels better soon!
Winged Writer

Christine--RHP said...

oh, I feel for you Sharilyn! it can be very difficult to be home alone in the dark winter sick with a little one...somehow the endless days and nights can be very depressing.
It looks like you are weathering the sickies alright and little Addie will be on the mend soon...
cool straws and emergen-C powder may help her to be interested in fluids....oh I remember those days well.

somehow, there is also some magic when the wee ones are sick for long periods...my son taught himself origami during a very scary and long bout with the flu at age 5... I get the feeling from your pics that Addie's little adventures during this time will be transformative as well...
wishing you both speedy recovery and some sunshine soon!

dahlhaus said...

It's so hard to see your kids get sick! There were a few years (when my boys were about 18 mos-4yrs) where it seemed like someone was sick for 3 weeks out of a month, all of us just sharing what the next one got. It was so frustrating. The boys are a little older and their immune systems are much better but school still brings home flus and colds despite hand-washing when we get home...
Stay rested and take care!- Heather

Trish said...

addie always looks so sweet! I hope she gets better soon, and that the two of you stay well so you can move on to other, sunnier adventures! p.s., those blocks are fantastic, I think I need a set of my own!

Chandra said...

I just wanted to say that you are so inspiring Sharilynn! I adore your sweet Adelaide and your fluffy kitties...I love visiting you on your blog! Your tree quilt is amazing but I also wanted to share with you a few weeks ago my issue of BH&G's came to my mailbox. I always look forward to the January issue because of the wonderful ideas on organization. My heart skipped a beat when I was flipping through the pages and saw your home fly off the page! Your blog was the first that I ever followed and the first to have inspired me to begin a blog of my own! So keep up the amazing work, and I loved the article. I really felt special that someone that I "knew" was featured. Give some hugs to Adelaide for me!!

Jodie said...

Get well! And thanks much for the Kumon link--I'm going to order some books for my grandson :)

ann.e said...

I know exactly what you mean when you say your daughter "makes my heart just ache." It's so hard to see them sick and miserable. She is really the sweetest thing and I love the little moments you capture for the blog!

It's kind of funny and I'm always reminded of it when I see your pictures - my husband is Asian and I thought our daughter would look just like yours. She surprised us all though with my blond hair :)

Lynelle said...

I love those bright and cheery blocks. They can make any day bright!

Becca said...

those blocks are truly beautiful..where do you find things like that?
Our sick days are much like that..with lots of packing up bags and setting off on travels play too. the kumon books are great..my little one LOVES to cut.

PixiePolaroid said...

Kids are true artist, because they set no limits and make it how they feel and from the heart. I saw that with my little nieces! So adorbz! <3

Tonya said...

I love looking at kid art...I feel like I am getting just a small glimpse at how their wonderful little minds are working! It makes it tough to not keep every single piece!

smjohnson said...

Try popsicles! We use them all the time at the Children's Hospital of Philadelphia to keep our little guys hydrated.

Minerva said...

Hope your sweet girl gets well soon... I understand you perfectly! I have 2 little girls and we passed all Christmas holidays like you explain, Martina (the older) with pneumony and Minerva (the little one) with a simple flu... it´s horrible! :-/ but how you say we did a lot of handcraft projects and had a very very nice time
:-)))))
kisses from Barcelona!

houseofsiennamack said...

ur such an inspiration - I read about you in Better Homes and Gardens, and just got to your blog bc I'm putting a link to you on my blog and read this story. As a mom of a little girl whom also runs her business from home - you completely struck a chord with me. Thanks for "normalizing" everything!

Anonymous said...

Hello Sharilyn and Adelaide,

I have been reading your blog for a long time, I really enjoy it but being a little shy I have never commented before. Ironically we live in Adelaide, South Australia and it is a beautiful place to name your daughter after!
I really love reading about all your adventures and the beautiful things you make (both of you). I would also love to buy some blocks like the ones in the picture, could you tell us what they are called? I am not sure such things are available here as I have never seen anything as lovely, but I could try to find them online.

Thank you for sharing a little of your life together with us, I am not sure if you realise it but it really makes our days out here a little lovlier!

Take care
Stephanie and family

Dawn said...

you're such an incredible mom! she's really going to love you for all the sweet memories you're creating together. i hope that when i have kids that we'll have great times together even when we're tired and sick.

Jacqui Dodds said...

Hope you will both be better soon - it feels like it's never going to end at times like this but I am sure it will.

Dianna said...

Little girls and boys should not get sick, however, they seem to handle it better than big girls and boys.

Anita said...

this is a little off subject, but i wanted to say that i saw your article in better homes and that is how i found your blog. i enjoy it and really enjoy that you refuse to put adds on your blog. hope you two are feeling well again soon.

Chelsey Thornton said...

such a precious little thing.
lovely pictures and lovely everything!

Lovely World said...

I know just what you mean about your aching heart. I love my own so very much. As I midwife, I have been blessed to see that aching love enter into a mother many times. You can practically feel it as a mother holds her little one for the first time at birth. There is nothing like it, and it will save the world.

Rosalind said...

I hope she feels better soon! It's never fun to see your children sick. Congrats on the magazine article the other week too! lovely home x

Molly said...

Aw, it's so hard to see a little one unwell. Sending get better wishes! xo

gina said...

found your blog after reading better homes! just love it! i'm sure you've heard it over & over, but where did you get those blocks?? i love them!

Whatever Dee-Dee wants said...

What a sweet girl!

Neith said...

it's probably all over now, but if next time you get that horrible cough and feel a bad chest, I always prepare an infusion with thyme and fresh ginger.
just a few branches of thyme or a couple tbspoons of dried one and some slices of fresh ginger, five or so for a litre of boiling water.
Leave it to rest for about 5min and then drink all through the day.
I like it both warm and cold and it helps my chest and cough very much (I tend to get my chest a bit congested in winter)

your girl looks lovely these days. It's so nice to see how both of you grow together.

Neith said...

you can also add some honey :)