Tuesday, June 24, 2008

with daddy


I met Charles and we became fast friends. I remember thinking to myself "I want to hang out with him more". I had no idea that years later here we'd be... together a little family.

One evening after we had officially been a couple a few weeks or so, we were having dinner and he said to me that if I ever got pregnant, then we were going to have a baby, together. I remember being a little taken aback at this as I had never had a boyfriend who talked like that before. All my previous boyfriends would take off running at the mere mention of ever having children. It was really sweet to finally hear that someone saw that with me.

Several years passed and whenever we passed a little family on the street we'd both be like "oh! I want a baby!" I had always loosely thought that I would want to be a mom someday, but when it came down to it I wasn't sure. I thought a good year about it, back and fourth, back and fourth. I couldn't decide for sure if that was what I truly wanted.

And then a tragedy occurred to a beautiful friend a half a world away... my most favourite girlfriend lost her little newborn baby. And I woke up one morning and knew completely that I wanted to take that chance. And If i was ever so lucky to be blessed with a child it was never something to be taken forgranted - for it is the most special thing that could ever happen. And I knew then that I did want to be a mama one day.

We tried once. Once! and I knew. and I was absolutely terrified. Scared shitless. I was so incredibly, terribly sick for month after month after month. It was horrible. And then, 56 hours of hard back labour. I was at home but finally I chose to go to the hospital. Our baby wasn't getting enough oxygen, our baby's heartbeat kept faltering. When they finally told me that they had to cut her out of me I just sobbed.

Oh, but that feels like forever ago now. And oh my, was it all ever worth it. But the point of this post is not about these things. But what I meant to say is how very pleased I am by the type of father my Charlie has become. There are many of the sweet types of things in this world, but to me one of them has got to be witnessing a man who truly loves his child and takes pride in being a great father. I am fortunate enough in this life of mine to have learned from past mistakes and am now with a man who is great to me and even greater to our little daughter.

Neither of us have ever been too interested in marriage in the big wedding sense. I've never been one of those girls who wanted a wedding - Actually I couldn't think of anything more embarrassing! I guess it's just not my thing. So we never have. I'm not sure if we ever will - its just not important to us.

But we are together, the three of us, our little family. And oh, our love together: It is Grand!

20 comments:

quaint handmade said...

thank you for sharing your lovely story. it is evident that you are madly in love with addie and charles, and now we know why.

nath said...

It is such an adventure to have a baby... It's so obvious you were menat to be together and have your beautiful little girl. Thanks for sharing

Anabela said...

This was so beautiful -- I'm a little teary! Thank you for writing this.

(I too think a wedding would be so embarrassing! I thought I was the only one!)

Lori said...

beautiful :^)

sininho said...

you are very fortunate!

Sophia Sunshine said...

Never been on your blog before (found it through "All Buttoned Up") but I like todays story. Hooray for sticking to your guns. I'm the same way when it comes to weddings and it seems something so few people can comprehend let alone understand.

Glad things have worked out so well for you.

fizia said...

beautiful:)) You are a great litlle family:)

kickpleat said...

that was so sweet! i love hearing stories like this one. lovely, indeed.

ismoyo said...

Love is a beautiful thing.
You are very blessed, thanks for sharing!

Stacy said...

Awwww. Very beautiful.

tifanie said...

what a beautiful story!

faith said...

such a sweet, heartwarming story :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Sharilyn! I've been coming to your blog for a few months now; but I wanted to wait for the most opportune time to tell you (and i don't do this very often, but you probably get this from lots of others! :P ), i enjoy and admire you for posting such a cool and beautiful story with us! Also thank you for sharing your world too! Hopefully I'll be able to have enough courage to do some purposeful blogging myself soon. But in the meantime I'm totally loving yours! Cheers! :] - Connie

christine said...

That is such a sweet and wonderful story! Thank you for sharing.

mandy said...

Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful story. I can relate to so much of it. My baby was born the same way after a very similar situation as it sounds like you had. And I have also taken so much joy in seeing the man I have chosen to spend my life with becoming a father. I can relate to the love of all three together. THanks again for sharing this; you sum it up so well!

unha said...

i'm in tears. thanks for sharing the story.

tiffany said...

what a beautiful love story - in many ways. you have such a beautiful family, and you take such beautiful photos of addie. it's a pleasure to be able to witness her growth and how much you love being with her.

HipKid said...

Thank you for sharing such a personal and lovely part of your life. I loved reading it. My husband and I married at city hall and it was the best thing for us. I remember showing a picture of that day to an older lady friend and she said "I hope you have a better picture than that." Oh well, I still love that picture.

Grace said...

My then-boyfriend said the same thing to me nearly 11 years ago -- if I got pregnant, then we'd have a baby, the two of us. I was really surprised by that, too. Now we're married and have two lovely little ones, so it's just as it should be, I think.

flora said...

I love your story... :)